So I know it's been a long time since I last really wrote anything. (That's not true, I got books published and shit). I did! I did! I had one short story published in a somewhat mainstream publication, and had a few short stories in independent zines and an anthology of dirty tales.
But I realize that my familiar medium was potery, and in English. Thanks to family drama, gadgets breaking down, resurfacing trust and self-esteem issues, impending deadline, the need for money and pressured into getting a degree because I need something "to fall back on" but without the money to actually do that, and the motivation (I lost that motivation when UiTM refused to let me enroll in Mass Communication and instead threw me into the Tourism course, no dissing you tourism degree holders, but it's just not what I want), and TEGAN AND SARA!!! I kind of been writing stuff again. Nothing great, and it may be a tad "too inspired" (in a Lady Gaga kind of way).
I was first introduced to Tegan and Sara (oh god I want to go to Canada and just play with their hairs) via this mix cd I rented back in Yogya. Music CD, VCD, and DVD rentals are hot shit in Yogyakarta. Well, it's a town full of students and students are usually perpetually broke. So I just got a new PC and was determined to fill it with stuff, music included.
Back then, the term 'hipster' was yet to be invented, so don't judge me based on what I'm going to tell you next. I went to the rental place and straight away got myself a bunch of GameHouse games and random mp3 CDs. The more obscure, the better. Somehow I heard Walking With A Ghost (the only Tegan and Sara song on the CD) and fell immediately in love. Pop enough to be pleasant, but unknown enough (to me) to be fresh. But I never really explored their music until now. I mean the Internet was already invented back then, but wasn't as easily accessible as it is now.
Years gone by, and I found myself falling in love with Trance music. Well, and House ...sometimes. Rarely. Whatevs. Then I found out Tiesto had made a record with Tegan and Sara (which I LOVE). And as the netizens of YouTube would confess, you click on the different links by the right hand side and just enjoy the journey. Which is how I discovered other than being amazeballs recording artists, they are also stupendously awesome performing live, and have great sense of humour during interviews and in-concert banters. Not to mention kick ass personalities and sense of style.
That was a long ass intro for this poem I wrote today (as yet, untitled):
I don't like holding you back
If it's freedom that you want
but you're not even asking that
You just need me at your beck
and call
And that is all
I can't do
When there are oceans standing
and stern guards in white watching
Making it hard for me to pass GO
and collect my $200 from you
But I'm not even asking that
I just need you to let
me give my all
and sometimes it's not enough
it's tough
but I promise you
it's the best I can do.
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Now, I'm going back to Tumblring them hot canadian midgets.
